Red Chestnut: A Semi-Dream

Dr. Bach's System of 38 Flower Remedies

The other day I purchased the Red Chestnut Remedy from my local Whole Foods. I tried it for the first time last night and again this morning and I can definitely notice a positive difference. I also spent a good amount of time googling natural remedies for heartburn, and in doing so realized I am my own worst enemy (doing things that perpetuate the cycle).

The difference between my anxious-self today and that of yesteryear is that I now have the means/motivation to better myself on my own, but without being too proud to recognize when outside assistance is a huge help. Being social, speaking of my fears/anxiety to my lover, de-stressing with healthy meditation, yoga and exercise and being able to step outside of myself are all playing their part in my own self-healing. I have not had a huge turning point in my life in quite some time. I have never been so happy and pleased to make another happy in my entire life, so naturally with this otherwordly happiness comes the fear of losing such. I have struggled with intense fears of abandonment, rejection, and self-loathing for most of my life. I am not searching for a quick-fix or to even rid myself entirely of these fears, for that would take away from the person I have become. However, I am striving to tame such fears and anxieties and to understand them. Running from them and avoiding them has not helped my over the years, though I initially thought it had. I need to recognize their true form, while my own is stepping into the light. I feel that most everyone around me is at a turning point in their life, it is clear that I am not alone in this enlightenment. But as much as we need to evaluate ourselves, we also must lean on each other.

In my dream last night, every person I have ever met lined up at the top of a hill and waved to me [individually] before sliding down. Once we were reunited at the bottom, we embraced for an extended period of time. To those on the outside, this sudden human contact seemed drawn-out; unnecessary. Only when their arms were wrapped around another did they fully understand the reason for this lengthy unison. Only then did they feel at peace.